at fault.

If i were to be truly honest with myself, i feel at this point in my life, my family is coming second, not first, and it kills me that its like that. If you ever seen me and my mom interact, we acted like we were best friends, and i loved taht. but now we have that typical mother daughter relationship, where i barely tell her anything. that may be ok for some other daughters, but not for this one. i pray that we really go back to being close. i pray that my family starts coming first again. i want to want to spend time with them. i want to be able to stay in a room with them longer that five minutes without a tiny argument blown out of proportion. i feel like i should be more mature, and stop fighting with them, but its as if something comes over me, and i just cant stop. I cant stop fighting, i cant stop being angry. this whole summer has honestly been filled with anger. I really do pray that i can get over it.