diagnosis

I've been having trouble praying. Trouble talking to God. And i think i found out why. When i pray i go over my day with God and thank him for that day. But when i go over my day, i usually go over all my mistakes, all my regrets. everything i wish i could have done differently. and it tears me up inside. and recently, my days have been filled with so many mistakes and regrets and failures, that i just didnt want to go over that again. i didnt want to experience that feeling of guilt and remorse. and, it may sound lame, but it made me stop talking to God in general. I just wanted to block everything out and not prolong the day. all this time, i wanted to at least know what was stopping me. now i know and although it will be difficult for me to fix, at least theres some relief that comes with it.

most wont understand this entry

but at least i will.