love letter.

some would say that this post is late, but since AE weekend, i realize that love just might be the most prevalent theme of summer '10. I am so extremely blessed to be loved by best friends, SLYM, and of course my family.  
first of all, however, i would like to say that i dont believe that two people can fall in love at my age. it's just too rare of a find. call me a pessimist,  but to find that undoubted bond that is so full of pure happiness and willingness in one specific person asks for a lot.  I have felt true love, no doubt. I fell in love around this time last year with slym and with God.  See, the feeling of love is familiar territory for all of us.  It is the purest feeling.  purer than a blank canvas, a baby's laughter, even the holy silence that rings in an empty church. It is the feeling of overwhelming joy, happiness, salvation.  It makes you ever so willing to bend and break just make this relationship work.  So how do i know that love at my age is hard? well i cant speak for all teenagers, but i can speak for myself.  I have fallen so madly in love with God, yet i still find it extremely hard to bend and break and sacrifice all i have just to make our relationship work.  if i can't find the drive in myself to make that work, then how is a teenager like me supposed to find the drive to make a relationship work with another human being? I mean, i find nothing wrong with dating, but expecting love out of it is so much to ask.  Im not saying i want the perfect relationship with God before i fall in love with someone special, but i want to at least mend and secure it.  I want to at least learn to cherish it and not abuse it.  i want God's love to speak for me in whatever future relationship He plans for me to fall in love in.  All in all i have laid it in God's hands. love is something extremely serious.  only time to grow in maturity and faith could prepare you for it.
so i guess to sum it up, i love... well i guess that's it, i just love.