in reference to two posts before this one

about my boyfriends brother
first i think you should realize that i am a harsh person. HARSH.
second i think you should realize that if you are reading this, you shouldn't be.  because these thoughts aren't really meant for the public eye. no duh that's why i dont post this stuff on tumblr.
third, i think you should understand that i was speaking out of my ass that day.  If i was ever angry or frustrated you and in anyway belittled you, whether it be in front of your face or behind you back, you should know that you didn't deserve it.  You are still a good and special person.
fourth, if i have an audience, you should learn that it is bad to be angry. i mean i guess it is healthy to let it out if you feel it, but try to avert the ugly emotion all together.  out of anger i defaced a name directly, and online. sucks. sorry. i usually dont do that. but then again i am harsh...
fifth, this is my version of an apology.