excuse me loved ones,

but please stop talking about me to each other as if i don't exist.  please stop acting like i have ruined your selfish, little lives by living not by your ridiculous, unnecessary and nit-picky standards, but by my own comfortable means.  stop acting like i have plagued you all with great suffering for the rest of the time that our lives overlap.  stop gossiping about me.  stop making fun of me.  thanks for being straight up and telling me that my words just float into the atmosphere like vapor, but i wish you could understand why that upset me.  Actually no, i'm with you, i dont see why i should be upset.  I mean after all, it's just you.  its your meaningless words that should fly like vapor over my head, leaving me unaffected.  im sorry but you leave me not much to be grateful for these days.  well thank you for setting me up with a great foundation, but i've made it fine with out you if you havent noticed.  i dont come to you when im hurt, sick, afraid.  i cook my own food, i clean up my own mess.  My team mates taught me how to ride a bike, my sister taught me how to drive, and slym taught me how to love.  i dont seek your guidance in tough situations.  my ears are numb to your chastising barks.  I know we love eachother, only because we have to.  It is His plan that we are stuck together, but we just patiently wait until it unfold.  Until then we try not to speak, because we know that the first things that come out of our mouths are words of hate, giving up, silence.
The Father is truly the Father. and the mother and father made of sand have faded like the vapor the has left me untouched for so many years.